It's great when your friend has a boyfriend, I mean the natural thing to do is be happy for your friend, maybe even congratulate them. But one thing I noticed with friends who have boyfriends is that they usually have no idea how to balance a boyfriend and their friends. I really hate that. That you would actually ignore your friends just so you can be with your boyfriend is the perfect example of the lack of priorities. I mean, it's okay if you want to spend every moment with your boyfriend, but for godsakes, at least inform your friends that you're ditching them.

Ever since I started having friends who had boyfriends, I promised myself I would never be that girl who would ditch her friends just to be with her boyfriend. That I would never walk away from a serious conversation with my friends just because "he" called. That's the dumbest thing I have ever seen. It's this precise conviction that I have, that actually leads me to get mad at baby. I get mad because when I'm with my friends, I don't want to be isolated with him while everyone around us talks, but he always manages to single me out and suddenly it's just him and I talking. I mean, I know I should feel so lucky, I have a boyfriend who's a girl and a boy all rolled into one, which is perfect for me. But I just really want to enjoy my friends while I'm with them. I just want what's between us to stay between us, not out in the open in front of everyone else. I guess you can say I want my relationship to be private, except kung nanggigigil ako sa kanya... hahaha!

Well, I lost my train of thought cause I'm talking to anz. But My point is, don't ignore your friends! I'm distracted, maybe I'll pick this up some other time, hahahaha.

Currently listening to: walk it out- DJ Unk
Currently reading: Chinese Stories
Currently feeling: distracted

I just hope things don't go downhill from here because of the lack of somewhere else to go...

Currently listening to: baby yawning
Currently reading: The great gatsby- F. Scott Fitzgerald
Currently feeling: sad

I haven't blogged in a while... cause ah... public declaration of feelings just ceased to my thing. I don't really care if anybody reads this shit, I just like going to a place where I can read all kinds of shenanigans I did and wrote.

So it's spring break. Wooohoooooo, I love it. I love just being at home and doing whatever the hell I want to do.

Last night, I took all kinds of pictures of myself with the webcam, predominantly ANTI-PRETTY pictures. It's just not me to smile like a fucking prefect princess, I mean it's nice to see nice pictures of myself, but goddamn, IS IT EVER SO AWKWARD! After I did my photo shoot with baby's joker skull that he made, I played some guitar and sang a bunch of dumb songs, and I FINALLY REMEMBERED THE CHORDS FOR THE ANA BANANA SONG!!! YEY ME! Then I recorded myself while I went on a verbal tirade on burping and manners. It was a funny piece, at least I though so, I cussed a lot, that's always funny.

To the two or three people who read this thing, I salute your patience at reading such nonsense. And to the others who're curiously snooping around, do you honestly thing I'd write something here I don't want you to know? Oh like, here's my social security number: PHUKET THAILAND! Hahaha! I love Juno:D. AND THE EXOTIC BIRDS!!!!

Currently listening to: hit me baby one more time- by DUHH
Currently reading: Penal Colony- Franz Kafka
Currently feeling: HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME

The day before New year's didn't start so well. I got really angry at Batman because he said he would come early to my house, but it turned out he couldn't because his tita asked him to do something for her. Sometimes, I just miss him so much I can't express it in any other way other than anger and aggression. Now, I'm the type of girl who says she doesn't like flowers, but when one receives them, one can't help but smile, you know that type of smile where your lips just curve even though you try so hard to restrain them. It's annoying, but when around 4pm somebody rang up our apartment saying that there was a flower delivery for Kris Dongallo, damn, I could feel that my whole face just lit up.

This New Year's was the best I ever had. The food was great, we had chicken alfredo with broccoli, pot roast, homemade mashed potatoes and a whole array of deserts to choose from. I spent it with my parents... and the kindest, sweetest person I have ever met was there. I got to spend the New year with Batman, and I had my very first New Year's kiss, haha!

I am so in love with you. The angrier I get over the time we can't spend together, you know it's only because I just miss you so fucking much. This is the happiest New Year I've had so far. And it's only because of you. I LOVE YOU FOOL!!! This feeling of my heart in my throat, like I'm ready to explode, I'm so scared, but I know there is no amount of doubt that can overcome what I know. And you know it too.

 

Currently listening to: The scientist- coldplay
Currently feeling: scared but happy

 

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I'm bored:D

Currently listening to: The way I are - Timbaland
Currently feeling: bored